This week hasn’t been great for me. I forgot my sister’s birthday. I criticized a religious group that did absolutely nothing to me and ranked them to an event that happened to me in another state (and it probably cost me a friend). I think I have carpel tunnel syndrome. The skin under eyes, as well as parts of my legs and arms twitch uncontrollably. I’ve been in college for 6 years and really getting tired of it. I’ve been searching for the right career for me, even moved to another state to persuade it.
And I ended up moving back to New Orleans. When I came back, everything changed. Katrina changed the landscape and everyone from high school had moved on.
It’s almost as if I were never existed.
For some unknown reason to this date, I decided to take a news writing class at Nicholls State University. Probably to become a full-time student.
It was that class that I decided what I wanted to do.
The major I wanted to go for was journalism. Many of you reading are probably yelling at me to pick another major, especially with the state of the newspaper industry. But I felt like I had an upper end. I started ControlAltDelete to write on my personal niche of sampling because I had a passion for writing about technology and Internet trends.
Example: I was using Twitter LONG before it became popular, and it dates back to 2006 when I was using another micro-blogging service Jaiku.
I transferred to LSU because they had a better journalism school than Nicholls. Plus I was able to meet new people. Sure, they were A LOT younger than me; some had no clue that the U.S. went to war with Iraq in 1991. It took time for me to get over that but I did get over the age difference.
I was hired by The Daily Reveille and I enjoyed write for the paper. Every Friday, I would get comments from the staff of how much they enjoyed reading my columns.
Finally after five years of searching, I felt like I was finally going places.
Unfortunately, Hurricane Gustav severely messed up my class work. Also add in a Chinese professor that spoke broken English and my lost-in-translation of figuring out how the system of economics work. Those events forced me to go part-time and I lost my job at the paper.
The feeling started to sink in that I couldn’t get into Mass Comm school, but I brushed it aside. I ignored the inner-person in me that said I couldn’t get in. I wanted to prove that I could get in because I finally found what I wanted to do.
I finally found what I was looking for and it required the impossible for me to accomplish. Counselors tell me that I should look elsewhere. I didn’t listen to them. I wanted to prove to everyone that they were wrong and that an average person with an ACT score that would have gotten laughs at almost every college admissions office can do the impossible.
The feeling of I’ll show you, I”LL SHOW EVERYONE! turned into waving the white flag of defeat.
For some unknown reason to me, I needed a 3.0 GPA to get into the Mass Comm school. I’ve been told the reason is because they wanted to keep the college small. I suspect the real reason is because they don’t want students to major in a dead-end major with little or no opportunity to get a job after college.
It finally hit me on Thursday that I even if I get four A’s this semester, A’s in the summer and A’s in the fall, I still won’t be able to get into the college.
It really is ashamed that colleges are like this. My grade-point average in high school was a 2.3 and my ACT score was 18. With those grades, there would have been absolutely no way for me to get into college. I wonder how many kids that have a passion for a career but have been told that they can’t advance because of below-average GPAs.
I know there has to kids that are in that situation I just described.
Anyway, now I have to find a new career; well, a new degree actually. I could go to another college but I don’t want to start over, especially since I’ve made friends. If I didn’t make any friends, I would have moved to another college. The new degree I’m thinking of is either what I was doing in Dallas (network administration), film design, or something that I haven’t figured out what to do.
Another item I will be doing is going part-time next semester. I really want to see if my website, ControlAltDelete.tv can take off. I’ve heard that if I put 9 to 13 months into a website, it can take off. I want to see if this is possible.
Anyway, that’s my plan for the rest of year. We’ll see if this does work.
. No classes today and one test on how to make a PowerPoint presentation. 
